Faith

Matthew 20:28 "For even I, the Son of Man, came here not to be served, but to serve others and give My life as ransom for many.

To think Christ said those words LIVE back then. That is astounding! Part of me wishes I was there. But with all going on with me medically, I can't see me now being an awesome verbal on fire one-for Him. 

I need help. I need Him to take all this away. He did the epilepsy, why not the rest? Or do I have to be ill in order to speak to others about Him. I have since the moment I was beaten and turned to overdosing-I realized there was more.

My brother and I hit the conversation. He read another one of my blogs on healing, then began thinking of a whole boat that went down. All I can say is that it hurts, but God has His timing for reasons. He has certain deaths as for they were enough, others not to see such atrocious sin enter when they return. Then we all out here on the outside have to answer. question. Understand. Many won't. Some will try. But God is in control and has His reasons for erratic things like this.

Then we get back to the illness. He goes on and on with all the selfish, wrong things he did-why didn't he get natural illnesses as I did? I have many to share-as I remained strong with Jesus. 

It took my 3rd brain surgery, my understanding his strife, and illnesses I have today to have him talking to and about God. Seeming way more stronger than myself. He asks me a question on God-faith, and gets me to answer it straight out. Therefore saying I have faith.

I know I have faith. Just is irritated, confused, and trying to get as strong. People like Troy are people who get it out of you. And I commend him, love him, and can't wait till he shares like me.

In His Love.

Heather

Anger

Anger.

Isn't it a blast?

We all are guilty of it. And we can't say more than another-cause only God knows. But how we handle it, is another story. 

We can steal. We can be verbal. We can lie. We can cheat. We can murder. 

We can beat another-that I know. Felt that one for sure. We can cut each other down. We can use humor to cut one down. We can hurt others feelings over and over intentionally. We could remain bitter.

I could go on. But that will get me no where. But more tired. More pain. More drained with no winning.

Answer: let's do all of everything together. (A little Jerry Maguire) Don't have to agree, have to work together so things fit. No one is perfect I have relearned except Jesus. But it is a hard road He gives us sometimes and we need to look to ways that will bring us happiness along the way. Shunt the anger. Begin to reach back out to our Lord in time. 

It took today-a billion messages after a full night up....along with a phone call. It took so much sadness I found occur in ONE day thru my Faceback that broke my heart. That made me realize-no I am not alone in this disaster, and He will pick us each up as we reach!

So much sadness. One very tragic story. Just pray for a friend of mine, no one really knows-Catherine-who tried to leave this world. That was a wake up. And my heart is with her.

I am aching still bad. I still hate this. I still ask God why me.... but in one day He showed me so much why's that I should shut my trap---so I am.

God bless you all!!

In His Love,

Heather

I'll keep you updated!

James 3:2 We all make many mistakes, but those who control their tongues can also control themselves in every other way.

2 Peter 3:13 But we are looking forward to the new heavens and new earth He has promised, a world where everyone is right with God.